Here it is, just about the middle of April. I LOVE spring! I get to plant a wonderful vegetable garden and play in all of my flower beds. I can spend the whole day in my yard and just tinker. But today I am missing my beautiful 20yo daughter. She is having such a hard time growing up. I cry most days for her. That isn’t like me; anyone would tell you that I am not a crier. No, I am the fixer. The one that will make everything all better. But I can’t this time and it hurts. I have to let her fall and boy is she falling hard, all on her own. I talk to her most days and this weekend was the first time she had to sleep in her car. All I could do was to encourage her with what she needed to do and to stay positive. I remember when I had no choice but to be on my own at 18yo and there were times I didn’t think I could do it. But I did and I know she will.
I am not a prayer, but I prayer for her. I pray for her to come home to CA and be happy. I pray for nothing bad to happen to my baby. I pray for her home where I can make things better for her. Again, so I can be the fixer. Oh my, that won’t work forever but right now the thought makes me feel better. I pray she stops fighting so hard to do things in such a difficult way and finish her college courses by July, keep positive friends, COME HOME and be happy.
I love you Brytnee!!
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